Elephant

  Elen stopped in front of the metal gate of the zoo and stood there for a moment. The wind ruffled her hair, but she quickly smoothed it down, as if trying to maintain control over every detail. A young employee opened the gate for her, his hands shaking slightly as he held the keys. "Good morning, Ms. Elen," he said quietly. His voice was uncertain, his eyes avoiding hers.

  "Good morning," she replied curtly, without a smile. Her tone was harsh, as if the presence of other people affected her only marginally. The young man motioned for her to follow him, and together they set off among the enclosures. Elen walked with her head held high, her step brisk, her gaze gliding over the cages and trees, but not over the people. There was something cold and aloof about her. As if the world were a backdrop and she alone were real.

  "Here we have the elephant enclosure," said the boy, but Elen was no longer listening to him. She stopped. Something had drawn her attention. The enclosure was quiet, except for the distant rustling of leaves and the occasional crack of a branch. And then a small elephant calf came running out from behind a tree.

  It was unexpectedly fast, its eyes dark and deep. It ran up to her, raised its trunk, and began to touch her nose with it. Elen froze, but did not flinch. It was strange, but pleasant. A warm touch, a soft pressure, as if someone were caressing her face with a tenderness she had not experienced in a long time.

  "Come on, little one..." she whispered. She smiled. For the first time all day.

  And then it happened.

  The trunk stuck to her face. Not like a game, not like a touch. As if it had become part of her skin. Elen froze. She felt her skin tighten, something happening inside. The baby elephant pulled away—but its trunk remained. It hung from her face as if it belonged there. The baby elephant ran away, confused.

  "What... what's happening?" she gasped. Her voice was shaky, her eyes wide with terror. And then it came.

  Pain. Sharp, deep. Tusks grew out of her skull. Hard, white, piercing her skin like knives. Her ears grew larger, heavier, hanging down her head like weights. She screamed in terror. Her body shook. She ran.

  She ran through the entire zoo, oblivious to the screams of people, their stares, only the terror inside her. Her trunk banged against her chest, her ears catching every sound like an explosion. She burst into the administration building, found the director's office, opened the door, and shouted, "Help! Something's happened to me!" And then she fainted.

  Darkness. Silence. Then a beeping sound. Light.

  When she woke up, she was in the hospital. White walls, a sterile smell, muffled sounds. She touched her face—the trunk was there. So were the tusks. Her ears hung like weights. Her body was foreign, heavy, unfamiliar.

  The doctor stood by her bed. His eyes were tired, but he spoke calmly. "Your skull has partially transformed into that of an elephant. Surgery would be risky. We cannot guarantee that you would have a human face."

  Elen took a deep breath. "No... no... no..." she began to scream. Her hands tried to tear the tusks from her skull, but they didn't budge. "Get it off me! I don't want it!" Her voice was full of despair, her body thrashing.

  The doctor held her by the shoulders. "If it doesn't disappear on its own, just as strangely as it appeared, we'll perform reconstructive surgery. Let's try to wait. You need to calm down."

  But Elen did not calm down. Her crying was deep, her breathing ragged. She felt her world falling apart. How her body had become a prison. How her face had become a heavy mask she could not take off.

  The days in the hospital merged into one endless stream of pain, silence, and tears. Elen sat on her bed, her trunk hanging from her face like a heavy burden, her tusks pressing against her cheekbones, her ears catching every sound—the dripping of water, the rustling of paper, distant laughter in the hallway. Everything was too loud, too close, too foreign.

  "I can't even eat normally," she said to the nurse once when she brought her a tray of food. "The trunk gets in the way. I have to lift it with my hand to even get it to my mouth." The nurse just nodded, her eyes downcast. Elen tried to pick up a piece of potato with her fork, but the trunk slipped back and hit her in the chest. "Damn it!" she cried. "I'm not human. I'm... something else."

  And then one day, Sara came.

  Elen saw her in the doorway and froze. Sarah stood motionless, her eyes full of tears, her lips trembling. "I've been looking for you," she said. "For weeks. No one would tell me where you were. They were afraid to tell me. Afraid of what I would see."

  Elen burst into tears. "Look at me. Look closely. I'm a monster."

  Sara walked over to the bed, knelt beside her, and hugged her. "You're not. You're Elen. My Elen. No matter what you look like."

  "But I... I'm scared. I'm afraid I'll never be normal again. That you'll leave me."

  "I'll never leave you," Sara said firmly. "You'll come to my house. We'll be together. I'll help you."

  And so Elen left the hospital. It was cold outside, the wind ruffling her hair—and her trunk banging against her chest with every step. Every step was painful, every glance from people like a needle. Sara held her hand, firmly, unwaveringly. She sat hunched over in the taxi, trying to hide her trunk, but it was impossible. The driver looked at her in the rearview mirror, his eyes wide, his lips tight.

  "Is it... real?" he asked quietly.

  "Yes," Sarah replied for her. "And she's my partner. So look away."

  They got out at Elena's apartment. On the way up the stairs, Elena started crying again. "I don't want this. I don't want this heavy trunk. These horrible tusks. Those floppy ears. I... I'm a monster."

  "You're not," said Sara. "You're mine."

  They entered the apartment. There was a large mirror hanging in the hallway. Elen saw herself in it. A woman with an elephant's trunk, tusks, ears. She stopped, frozen. "Is that me? Is that my face? I want my face back." Sarah hugged her.

  They packed a few things and went to Sarah's house. In the evening, they sat at the table, the silence between them calm, not oppressive. Elen tried to grab a grape with her trunk. Clumsily, slowly, but she finally succeeded. She put it in her mouth. "I ate something... with my nose," she said quietly. Sara laughed. "How does it feel?"

  They went to take a bath. The water was warm, steam rising to the ceiling. Elen sat in the tub, Sara opposite her. "I'll try something," said Elen. She lifted her trunk, filled it with water, and squirted it out like a fountain. Sara laughed. Elen laughed too—but then she stopped. "I still have... this trunk, these tusks, these horrible ears. I don't want it. I don't want it!" She started to cry. Sara hugged her. "I'm here. I'm with you."

  Before going to sleep, they brushed their teeth. Elen had to lift her trunk to see the toothbrush. Then she brushed her tusks too. "This is absurd," she said.

  She tosses and turns in bed, unable to sleep. Her trunk weighs heavily on her chest, her ears get in the way. "I don't want this body," she whispered and cried. Sara stroked her. "You're mine. We can do this."

  In the morning, Elen woke up. She stretched and yawned. It was as if she had forgotten. She didn't notice anything getting in the way. Then she sat up and noticed her trunk. "No..." she whispered. She cried again. It wasn't a nightmare; she still has the elephant's trunk, the elephant's tusks, and those huge ears. Sara kisses her. "We have to go out. You can't hide."

  They put on the same clothes to show that they belong together. People stare at her in the supermarket. Elen is embarrassed. A little girl jumps onto the cart. "Wow! You're beautiful! Can I pet your trunk?" Elen agrees. The little girl pets it. "It's hot! It's alive!" she says and runs away laughing.

  After shopping, they go to a restaurant for lunch. Everyone watches her, some take pictures of her. But they order food and eat. Elen no longer has to lift her trunk with her hand; she can lift it herself. Then Elen reaches for the pepper shaker with her trunk. She peppers her food. As if nothing had happened. Automatically, without thinking. They both freeze. "I... I used it... like a hand." Sara smiles. "It's starting to be yours."

  The house was quiet, except for the ticking of the clock and the occasional creaking of the parquet floor. Elen sat on the sofa, the trunk slipping between her fingers. Sara sat next to her, her head resting on her shoulder. "Do you think I'll ever get used to it?" Elen asked quietly.

  "You're already getting used to it," Sara replied. "I saw how you handed me the pepper shaker today. It was as if you'd been doing it your whole life."

  Elen smiled. "Maybe. But I'm still afraid. I'm afraid that this body... that it will break me one day."

  Sara kissed her on the cheek, right next to the trunk. "It won't break you. Because you're still you inside."

  They were silent for a moment. Then Sara said, "You know... I had an idea. It might sound strange."

  "What?"

  "That trunk. It's so sensitive. So alive. Maybe we could... try using it when we make love."

  Elen froze. "That's... weird."

  "We'll just try. If you don't like it, we'll stop."

  Elen nodded. Slowly, uncertainly. The bedroom was dim, the light from the lamp casting soft shadows. Elen slipped the trunk under Sara's skirt, gently caressing her crotch with it. Sara sighed. Her body trembled. Elen felt her trunk becoming an instrument of tenderness, pleasure, connection.

  Then she slid it into her vagina. Sara cried out. Not in pain, but in pleasure. Her body arched, her hands clenched the sheet. "I've never... never experienced anything like this," she whispered.

  Elen sat next to her, her trunk resting calmly on her thigh. "Maybe... maybe it's not a curse."

  They sat together on the couch, cuddling. A report was running on TV: "A woman with an elephant's trunk was spotted in the city." Elen didn't even look at the screen. "That's me," she said.

  In the kitchen, she was cutting a cucumber with both hands while holding a wooden spoon in her trunk and stirring the contents of a pot. Sara was looking for milk in the refrigerator. "Do you have it?" she asked Elen. "Yeah, here it is." Everything seemed incredibly normal. As if Elen had always had a trunk.

  When they went out together to take out the trash, they had no idea what awaited them. As soon as they stepped onto the street, they were surrounded by a crowd of journalists. Cameras, microphones, flashbulbs. "Elen! Elen! How are you feeling? What happened to you? Is it real?" Elen froze. Sara grabbed her hand. "Come on, let's get through this." But the reporters blocked their way. "Please, just a short statement!" Elen took a breath. "I'll come to the studio. I'll give you an interview. But now let us go." The crowd parted.

  In the TV studio, Elen sat opposite the reporter. Lights, cameras, tension. "Can you tell us what happened to you?" Elen looked into the camera. "I was at the zoo. A baby elephant came up to me. Its trunk stuck to my face. Then it came off... and stayed off. I grew tusks, ears. I couldn't stop it. At the hospital, they told me that surgery wasn't possible. I cried for days and nights. The trunk got in my way. I couldn't eat or talk. I was desperate. But Sara. She didn't abandon me. She helped me. And I... I got used to it. The trunk is part of me now. The tusks, the ears... everything. It's mine. It's me."

  Time passed. Elen and Sara lived in a house with a garden. Elen moved all her things there. Her apartment was empty, ready for sale. One morning, they were lying in bed together. "Just a little longer," Sara murmured. Elen smiled. Then she froze. She heard a dark rumbling.

  "Do you hear that?" she asked.

  "What?" Sara listened. "I don't hear anything."

  "A rumbling. Something's coming." Elen sat up. Her elephant ears picked up the infrasound, the deep vibrations of the earth. "We have to get out!" She grabbed Sara's hand and dragged her out of the house.

  At that moment, the ground began to shake. The house collapsed. They stood outside, in their pajamas, shivering. "If I hadn't pulled you out..." "Elephant ears," Elen said quietly. "They hear infrasound. They saved us."

  They stood in front of the ruins. "We have nothing," said Elen. "But we have your apartment. It hasn't been sold yet," said Sara. They returned there. The apartment was half empty. They only had clothes from charity. They made a sofa out of boxes and carpets. A neighbor donated an old TV. In the bedroom, they only had mattresses on the floor. But they were together. And that was enough.

  It was autumn. The trees on the street in front of Elen's old apartment were losing their leaves, which fell onto the sidewalk like slow, silent memories. Elen sat on the porch in a tracksuit she got from charity. Sara sat next to her, eating cookies brought by a neighbor.

  "You know," Elen said, "if someone had told me a month ago that I'd be sitting on a box instead of a couch, with an elephant's trunk on my face, and I'd be... calm... I probably would have laughed at them."

  Sara smiled. "And yet here you are. And you're mine."

  "Don't keep saying that," Elen muttered. "Not because I don't believe you. But because I still can't hear it."

  Old news was playing on the TV. The picture was grainy, the sound was noisy. But Elen found that she didn't mind. In fact, she found it soothing. They sat together on a makeshift sofa made of boxes, covered with a blanket, and watched the screen as if it were a fire in the fireplace.

  In the bedroom, they lay on a mattress on the floor. Elen snuggled up to Sara.

  They laughed. They teased each other. And then they made love. Slowly, gently, with and without the trunk. Elen felt like herself, normal. Not in spite of her body, but because of it.

  In the morning, they found a letter in the mail. Elen opened it carefully, as if afraid the writing would hurt her. She read aloud:

  "Dear Ms. Elen, if your condition persists, we would like to invite you for a consultation. Our clinic now has new methods of reconstructive surgery at its disposal. We believe we could help you regain a human appearance, albeit not entirely original. We would use skin grafts from your back, skull modeling, and other procedures. If you are interested, please contact us."

  Elen was silent for a long time. Then she looked at Sara. "Do you think I should?"

  Sara didn't answer right away. "I think you should do what you feel. Not what you think you should."

  They went to the clinic together. The doctor showed them models, drawings, photographs. "It won't be perfect. But you'll look human. At least a little. You'll be able to look in the mirror and see... someone who resembles who you used to be."

  Elen looked at the pictures. At the designs. At the possibilities.

  Then she replied. "No. Thank you. But no."

  The doctor raised his eyebrows. "What? Are you sure?"

  "I am. This body is mine. I didn't choose it. But I accepted it. And now... now I don't want it back. I don't want to be who I was. I want to be who I am now."

  Sara smiled. Her eyes sparkled. "I'm proud of you."

  Elen shook the doctor's hand. "Thank you for the offer. But I'm home now."

  And they left.

  Evening. Elen stands on the balcony. The wind ruffles her hair, her elephant ears flutter, her trunk hangs calmly. She looks at the city. At the lights, at the people, at life.

  Inside the apartment, Sara is making tea. Another report is playing on TV. This time it's not about Elen. This time it's about someone else. Elen smiles. She is no longer a sensation. She is just a person. Or something.

  She closes her eyes. She listens. In the distance, deep below the threshold of human hearing, she hears a rumbling. The city breathes. And so does she

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